Category Archives: control

Dream Within a Dream

Posted on February 9, 2015 by Curated Curiosity

Some say the dead visit them when they sleep… But what if it’s actually US visiting them? I have this theory…. Since having PTSD I have several recurring nightmares. I compare these to my own personal hell. Once in a … Continue reading →

Posted in angel, beauty, blog, calgary, control, crazy, Dark, death, family, model, PTSD, truth, Yyc | Tagged #beauty, andre goulet, calgary, death, dreams, heaven, hell, model, photography, PTSD, subconscious | Leave a comment

YYC FASHION WEEK: SPLASH!!!

Posted on July 15, 2014 by Curated Curiosity

It was an honour and privilege to walk for Queen Boutique and Silla Designs ( https://m.facebook.com/SillaDesignsCalgary ) by Ashley Wong in the SPLASH FASHION SHOW by YYC FASHION WEEK. The feature designer was Raul Manriquez. Myself and 19 other models … Continue reading →

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Nightmares

Posted on November 26, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

At almost 30yrs old I still am plagued by nightmares. I know what you think, it’s just a dream. But you don’t see what I see. Sometimes I’m terrified to sleep, sometimes I just beg to sleep ’cause I’m so … Continue reading →

Posted in anxiety, calgary, canada, control, crazy, depression, derranged, devastation, disturbing, girlproblems, psychotic, PTSD | Tagged calgary, fear, model, nightmares, PTSD | 2 Comments

Flawed Design

Posted on November 17, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading →

Posted in angel, anxiety, beauty, brunette, calgary, canada, childhood, commonsense, confidence, control, crazy, death, depression, derranged, devastation, discipline, disturbing, drugs, embarrassing, fight, gay, girlproblems, glamour, god, goodbye, hope, identity, individuality, inspiration, love, masochistic personality disorder, mentalhealth, nerd, nervous, opinion, photography, PTSD, scars, truth, universe | Tagged child, dark, god, imperfect, macabre | 8 Comments

Are You Mental?

Posted on November 6, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

Do you have any idea what it’s like to have a mental illness? Or even worse (which is most of us) a few mental illnesses running a muck on your scattered little brain? PTSD, depression, and a dose of masochistic … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, anxiety, beauty, boyfriend, brunette, bullying, calgary, canada, child, childhood, children, classy, commonsense, confidence, control, crazy, death, depression, derranged, devastation, disturbing, dogattack, girlproblems, hope, identity, improvise, individuality, insecurity, likes, masochistic personality disorder, mentalhealth, model, modeling, nerd, nervous, overwhelmed, psychotic, PTSD, responsibility, sales, society, truth, Uncategorized, writer | Tagged depression, masochistic personality disorder, mental health, PTSD, therapy | 2 Comments

Just Jump

Posted on October 20, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

Never fear leaping off the edge. God will do one of two things: If you fall, he will catch you. And if he believes in you, he’ll teach you to fly. You won’t know until you try. So jump. I … Continue reading →

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Alone in the Crowd

Posted on June 10, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

Am I the only person that feels even more lonely when surrounded by people? Some people are energized by interaction with others, I find I’m drained by it. I feel great sympathy for the stars who want their privacy, I … Continue reading →

Posted in beauty, control, depression, fashion, girlproblems, identity, insecurity, mentalhealth, model, outcast, overwhelmed, truth | Tagged alone, antisocial, overwhelmed, strange | 7 Comments

Runaway Train

Posted on June 4, 2013 by Curated Curiosity

Have you ever felt like your entire life is out of control? Like you’re struggling against every action and no matter how hard you try,every effort you make is futile. It’s as if you’re on a train with no brakes … Continue reading →

Posted in control, disaster, overwhelmed, success, truth | Tagged control, crazy, life, runawaytrain, train, universe | 3 Comments

Flawed perfection

Posted on August 30, 2012 by Curated Curiosity

You say you want me wild That beautiful top model But truth is I’m scared to death Staring at the bottom of the bottle Drowning in my own tears I ease the pain Substance to substitute fears but what do … Continue reading →

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I don’t play well with others

Posted on January 10, 2012 by Curated Curiosity

I’m a loner, always have been, always will be. I do well with perhaps one friend, or a few friends, but never a big group of friends, too many people freak me out. I don’t care if thousands of people … Continue reading →